Finding my flow

Finding my flow

Do you ever wish that someone would just give you a road map for how you should live your life and where you should go next?

I have spent a lot of life not knowing what I should do or which path that I should take and making decisions of any kind was just down right agonising.

I honesty did not have a clue and I kid you not until I finally “woke” up to what I wanted to do with my life my favourite saying was “I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up” true story ask any of my old work colleagues they will totally vouch for me.

Up until a point in my life which I will happily share with you I just seemed to be in that limbo space where life happened to me.

I never really knew what I wanted to do so I just did what was presented to me, even if I wasn’t overly happy with it I just went right ahead and did it because I just never thought that there were any other options.

Occasionally though I did land flat on my face in the dirt and then I would have the insight of, mmm maybe this path isn’t so great for me after all.

This isn’t to say that I haven’t been a proactive person in my life , I’ve had  goals within my work places and have gone on to achieve those. It really was that I was all very “Meh” with where my life was at and didn’t know what I needed to do or could do that would make a difference.

Then I discovered the meditation app Smiling Mind and I made the commitment to myself to meditate morning and night for 5 minutes, because I could spare 5 minutes right that was nothing.

Who would have thought that something as little as 5 minutes twice a day could open up a whole new world of existence to me.

I am not a person who believes in coincidence I believe in synchronicity, where two or more related events occur to bring meaning and direction into your life, you know those moments when you think to yourself, maybe I should learn about meditation and you bump into your girlfriend and she tells you that she has just started up a class.

What regular meditation did for me was get me out of my head and into my body, it was a gradual process that created significant psychical reactions in my body.

I began to have energy flow from my head all the way to my toes.

There was an essence within my body that seemed to be “waking up” each time that I meditated.

It’s difficult to put into words but it felt amazing and it felt like a great big warm fuzzy hug from the Universe, it felt loving, it felt supportive and it was beautiful.

I will admit that there were a lot of tears, happy tears of course, but also tears of release as my healing journey back to wholeness began.

Over the course of several weeks and months as changes began to occur within myself, I could feel that I was becoming a lot more centred, my anxiety and stress levels began to reduce and I was beginning to feel happier and my external world began to change.

I was beginning to reconnect with aspects of myself that I had turned my back on, such as my healing modalities, my intuition, and my excitement for life was returning.

As all of these changes occurred within me and around me and I began to find myself in the right situation at the right time where new opportunities were being presented to me.

I found myself being led to new teachings and learnings that inspired me and gave me the opportunity to learn more about myself on a level deeper than anything than I have ever thought possible.

As my meditation practice grew my inner calm and happiness expanded.

The more centred that I became in my life the clearer the view of my life ahead seemed to be to me.

From the time that I started my daily meditation practice in 2013 to now I have gone from a corporate 9-5 job to now having my own practice helping people change their lives.

This was not something that I ever thought that I would have the opportunity to do as my full time work.

To me my work now is joyful, exciting, creative and fulfilling and I know that I would not be where I am today if I had not made that commitment to myself in 2013.

I went from lost to purpose, drive, a mission and passion in such a short period of time.

I went from having no direction to seeing the unlimited possibilities that lay ahead.

For that I am so grateful every single day.


Enjoy the journey

Enjoy the journey

How often have you jumped in your car packed to the brim with suitcases and personal items ready to hit the road on a vacation or weekend getaway.

Probably more than once right?  As you think back to those times can you recall what the driving focus of that was?

Was it the fun that you were going to have on the way playing eye spy or making up names of number plates?

Was it the excitement of stopping at new places along the way and exploring what icons those places had?

Was it an opportunity for you to let you mind wander over all of your achievements up to this point?

Did you take the opportunity to while travelling to listen to your favourite author on audio? 

For many of us the answers to all of the above would be No, No, No and No.

We become so focused in life with where we want to be that we completely miss the opportunity to appreciate and experience where we are right now.

Our lives are a perpetual moving forward motion of action that rarely has the chance to stand still and take in all that is already around you.

If you are in a career and you are wanting to advance in that position is your focus on how you can become the best at what you are doing now as a way of fulfilling your own personal growth or is it merely a means to an end? 

When you get to that end do you think that you will be as fully prepared and equipped to fulfil the role as someone who has spent the time embracing every aspect of their role leading up to the advanced position? 

When an athlete spends all of their time focusing on winning the gold medal, puts in all of the hours the blood sweat and tears do you think when they are standing on that podium that they are feeling a deep sense of gratitude and appreciation for where their life has led them or are they thinking wow my whole life has been just for this moment and now that its here what have I actually done with my life?

While that may seem an extreme example how can you relate this to your own life? 

I know just for myself recently my whole focus in the month leading up to my trip to Canada was about making sure that the wheels on my business kept on turning while I was away. 

Now this was great as it allowed me to go away and spend quality time with my sister and not worry however I can 100% say that I was not here at all for my family in that lead up.

I also placed myself under a great deal of pressure to complete all that I needed to get done.

My head was so focused on what needed to get done before I sat on that plane that I wasn’t really fully experiencing any of the encounters or enjoying my experiences as fully as I could have been.

When we are fully present in the tasks that we are undertaking, when we focus the enjoyment of it then the outcome of the task will be far more enriched due to the attention that you have given to it.

When a flower begins to bloom it is not rushing to have all of its petals fully expanded, it is revealing in the joy of the sun shining on it, it is revealing in the expansion of its growth as its petals gently open to fully receive the warmth and life giving force of the sun.

I have been walking every day since my return home and I am loving that my focus is on the sounds of the birds that I can hear, the sun on my face, the blue skies the smell of the trees, the occasional swooping magpie and the exhilaration of moving my body. 

My focus is not on where I am going or how far I am walking I am fully immersing myself in the experience.

When you begin an art creation is the pleasure in knowing what the final outcome will be or do you draw your joy from the state that you place yourself into to create your art.

When your favourite song comes on the radio you don’t sit there waiting for the end of it, you most likely sing along and feel your spirit soar as you lose yourself in the music.

Life moves so very quickly with all of our deadlines, our to do lists and our technologies. 

If all that we ever do is focus on where we are going to next then one day our next is going to be the end of the line and you will be left wondering where the hell it all went. 

Take time to be fully present with all that you do. That means when you are having a conversation with someone really look at them and hear what it is that they are saying.

We all too often spend these moments thinking of our replies. 

The next time that your child asks you to read to them, really immerse yourself into the characters and cherish these moments that will be gone all too quickly.

The next time that you go for a walk, really feel the movement and power of your body as there will come a day when taking a walk may no longer be an option.

Living your life as fully as you can is allowing yourself to focus on what is happening right here right now.

Goals and dreams are great and we all have them, but without the journey along the way the goals and dreams can never be reached. 

The journey is really the unsung hero of our lives, filled with so many incredible encounters, learnings, and experiences that without the destination would not be as sweet.