Finding my flow
Do you ever wish that someone would just give you a road map for how you should live your life and where you should go next?
I have spent a lot of life not knowing what I should do or which path that I should take and making decisions of any kind was just down right agonising.
I honesty did not have a clue and I kid you not until I finally “woke” up to what I wanted to do with my life my favourite saying was “I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up” true story ask any of my old work colleagues they will totally vouch for me.
Up until a point in my life which I will happily share with you I just seemed to be in that limbo space where life happened to me.
I never really knew what I wanted to do so I just did what was presented to me, even if I wasn’t overly happy with it I just went right ahead and did it because I just never thought that there were any other options.
Occasionally though I did land flat on my face in the dirt and then I would have the insight of, mmm maybe this path isn’t so great for me after all.
This isn’t to say that I haven’t been a proactive person in my life , I’ve had goals within my work places and have gone on to achieve those. It really was that I was all very “Meh” with where my life was at and didn’t know what I needed to do or could do that would make a difference.
Then I discovered the meditation app Smiling Mind and I made the commitment to myself to meditate morning and night for 5 minutes, because I could spare 5 minutes right that was nothing.
Who would have thought that something as little as 5 minutes twice a day could open up a whole new world of existence to me.
I am not a person who believes in coincidence I believe in synchronicity, where two or more related events occur to bring meaning and direction into your life, you know those moments when you think to yourself, maybe I should learn about meditation and you bump into your girlfriend and she tells you that she has just started up a class.
What regular meditation did for me was get me out of my head and into my body, it was a gradual process that created significant psychical reactions in my body.
I began to have energy flow from my head all the way to my toes.
There was an essence within my body that seemed to be “waking up” each time that I meditated.
It’s difficult to put into words but it felt amazing and it felt like a great big warm fuzzy hug from the Universe, it felt loving, it felt supportive and it was beautiful.
I will admit that there were a lot of tears, happy tears of course, but also tears of release as my healing journey back to wholeness began.
Over the course of several weeks and months as changes began to occur within myself, I could feel that I was becoming a lot more centred, my anxiety and stress levels began to reduce and I was beginning to feel happier and my external world began to change.
I was beginning to reconnect with aspects of myself that I had turned my back on, such as my healing modalities, my intuition, and my excitement for life was returning.
As all of these changes occurred within me and around me and I began to find myself in the right situation at the right time where new opportunities were being presented to me.
I found myself being led to new teachings and learnings that inspired me and gave me the opportunity to learn more about myself on a level deeper than anything than I have ever thought possible.
As my meditation practice grew my inner calm and happiness expanded.
The more centred that I became in my life the clearer the view of my life ahead seemed to be to me.
From the time that I started my daily meditation practice in 2013 to now I have gone from a corporate 9-5 job to now having my own practice helping people change their lives.
This was not something that I ever thought that I would have the opportunity to do as my full time work.
To me my work now is joyful, exciting, creative and fulfilling and I know that I would not be where I am today if I had not made that commitment to myself in 2013.
I went from lost to purpose, drive, a mission and passion in such a short period of time.
I went from having no direction to seeing the unlimited possibilities that lay ahead.
For that I am so grateful every single day.