You can change your life

For the longest time my words, thinking and vocabulary sounded like this:

I can’t do this
I’m not good enough
I don’t want to be here
No one gets me
No one understands me
I’m not lovable
You’re such an idiot
I’m not smart enough
I don’t know enough
No one sees me
No one hears me
I don’t matter
I disliked my body
It’s not fair
Money is the root of all evil
No one values me
I’m a shit mum

I physically could not say no to anyone for fear that they would judge me, reject me, or stop loving me.

The thought of speaking my truth was terrifying, it would literally feel as though a vice was around my throat whenever I attempted to share my feelings or speak up for myself and to ask for what I wanted or needed.

For many years I believed that I deserved the shitty situations and relationships that I found myself in, I believed on some level that there was a “reason” that I was in this situation, that it was part of my divine plan and I was “meant” to be there for a higher purpose.

Little did I know that the “reason” and purpose for those situations was so that I had the opportunity to choose a different belief, to actually say hang on a minute “I deserve better than this” I could choose to leave, choose a different path and say enough is enough.

There were moments in time when I finally found the courage to do and say those things only to find myself in repeating patterns and situations.

They say “better late than never” and my turning point didn’t occur until I was in my 40’s.

And what a turning point that was.

It was my big “wake up” call and kick up the ass from the Universe that YES enough was enough and things had to change and change radically.

It began with the seeds of I can’t keep doing this.

A knowing deep in my body that there must be a better way.

An intuitive nudge that my life did not have to continue the way that it was.

So I began asking the Universe to help me help myself, to show me the way, to give me a sign and give me the strength and the courage to make the changes I knew I needed to make.

In the beginning, it was terrifying.

What if people judged and criticised me
What if I was persecuted (metaphorically)
What if people left me
What if I left people
What if others stopped loving me
Who would I be if I changed
What would that look like
What would that feel like
What if, what if, what if ……………………

So my words, thinking and vocabulary started to shift to ths:

I can do this
I am enough
I deserve to be here
I get me
I understand who I am
I am lovable
I am intelligent
I am wise
I know all that I need to know
I see me
I hear me
I matter
I love and approve of myself
The Universe has my back
Everything is always working out for me
I am abundant in every way
My body supports me in every way
I am valued and valuable
I am the best mum I know how to be

AND I began to speak my intuitive wisdom, I began to set healthy boundaries and not move the goal post.

I began to say this is what I need to do, and you can choose to support me or not, either way this is what I need to do.

I developed a healthy and loving relationship with myself.

I did lose people and situations.

I left a job, a soul destroying job and started doing the work that I LOVE most in the world, teaching meditation, healing, readings and coaching.

The toxic people in my life left and drifted away making way for new healthy and aligned souls to arrive.

The relationships with the people who belonged in my life strengthened and deepened.

This was not an overnight change.

I made a commitment to myself to change, to accept myself, to love myself and to forgive myself.

I promised myself that I would do whatever I needed to do every day to create healthy and positive change in my life.

I made myself, my emotional wellbeing, my spiritual wellbeing, and my health my first and only priority.

The ripple effect of that was huge and far reaching, not only did I create healthy change in me, it also had a positive effect on everyone around me.

This is what it means to “Awaken” and this is possible for you also.

So much love

Own It

Ok, I’m a little frustrated. 

I don’t know how many times of late that I have heard strong, empowered and aligned women say it’s not “woo woo” or I don’t want to get too “woo woo”. 

We all need to stop saying woo woo as a way to justify the intuitive understanding and connection with life that is our natural state of being. 

I don’t think that the American Indians referred to their connection to the spirit of all living things as woo woo. 

I doubt very much that our Pagan sisters referred to their deep connection to the Earth, the moon and the cycles of life as woo woo. 

Woo woo to me is a very patriarchal term that has been created to discredit women who connected to and listened to their intuition, nature and the God/Goddess. 

It is our natural state of being to be intuitive, to listen to the voice of your heart, to hear the song of your soul and understand the natural order of life as we live it in this cosmos. 

Astrology is a science that has been used for 2400 years this is not woo woo it’s science, the planets in our solar system have a direct influence on us as human beings. 

The moon has a direct link to the tides of the oceans – this is not woo woo it is proven scientific fact, we as humans have the same content of water in our bodies as the oceans that cover our planet. 

It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to realise that if the moon affects the body of water that covers the planet then it must have a similar effect on us.

Women cycle every month this is no coincidence and certainly not woo woo. 

It is not woo woo that everything in the universe is connected this has been long proven by science. 

During World War II government agencies used psychics to remotely view what was happening across enemy lines, this was not deemed woo woo it was a proven science. 

Science has also recorded the sound of plants, a living sound frequency, it interprets the frequency emitted by the plants and translates it into music. 

Sound has been used for thousands of years as a healing tool this is not woo woo. 

Jesus healed the sick and this was deemed a miracle not woo woo. 

Dr Jo Dispenza has scientifically proved through thousands of live studies that illness can go into remission over the course of a week of deep meditation.  This has not been called woo woo, it is science. 

Your ability to receive the intuitive messages of your heart and your body is not woo woo it is your birthright. 

Law of attraction is not woo woo its science – quantum physics to be exact. 

When two scientists on different sides of the globe can come up with the exact same scientific outcome at the same time and neither knew what the other was working on this was not called woo woo it was called science. 

Reiki Healing is used in hospitals in Japan, the UK and the USA and has been for years.  

The Japanese prescribe tree therapy to workers who are suffering from mental health. 

Indigenous cultures celebrate their young who see and hear spirit, they are mentored by the medicine men and women, shamans of their communities and celebrated for the healers, seers and medicine men and women they will become, not medicated and institutionalised. 

The Chakra system originated in India between 1500 and 500 BC in the oldest text called the Vedas.

Everyone who is seriously involved in the pursuit of science becomes convinced that a spirit is manifest in the laws of the Universe-a spirit vastly superior to that of man, and one in the face of which we with our modest powers must feel humble.” Albert Einstein 

This quote from Albert Einstein one of the greatest scientific minds that ever walked the planet. 

If you feel connected to the vibrational frequency of the planet own it. 

If you are deeply empathic to the feelings of others own it.

If you know intuitively what is going on with others own it.

If you feel the presence of your loved ones in spirit own it.

If you feel a connection to a divine loving presence own it.

If you trust your gut feelings, vibes, hunches, intuition own it.

If you follow your heart’s guidance and not your head own it.

If you know shit and don’t know how you know it own it.

We have been told for centuries that we can only be what we are told by religious organisations and governments what is acceptable to be. 

Free thinking, free thought, free speech is not encouraged.

Conform and control is what has been used to diminish our light for far too long. 

Tall poppy syndrome, too confident, too strong, too loud, too different are words that need to be scrapped from our vocabularies. 

We are coming full circle, we are on the path to remembering that we are divine beings living a human experience. 

This is not a new concept, healing methods were used long before traditional medicine was created. 

People were living in harmony with the lands, nature, the seasons from the beginning of human life. 

You are not woo woo if you believe in a higher power, appreciate nature, feel emotions, see the beauty of life and people or believe that peace and harmony with all beings are achievable. 

This I believe is exactly how it should be and was always supposed to be. 

So next time you feel the need to justify yourself, your thoughts or beliefs by calling it woo woo, 

STOP, take a breath and own it.