As a child, I always felt that I should be able to fly.
There was an aspect of myself within that wanted to be free, to feel the air rushing at my face and the feeling of soaring on the thermals of air around me.
It felt constrictive to be stuck on the ground and trapped in my body.
At night the only way that I could drift into sleep was to imagine that I was leaving my body out through the top of my head, and then floating in the air above my body.
This would instantly relax me, I felt free and I could do summersaults above my body.
Sometimes this would last for a while and at others, I would come back into my body with a thud.
I now know that this was the Spirit essence of myself leaving my physical body. In other words, a form of astral travel.
As I got older it felt as though my wings had been clipped and I became more connected to my physicalness.
I have also watched this play out in children, my son when he was 4 wanted a superman outfit.
I remember seeing his disappointment when the cape didn’t work and he couldn’t fly.
We are all born with a remembering of expansiveness, free from physicalness and able to move through space and time.
Then as we become more anchored in our physical forms we forget that we are more than just the bodies that we came into this life with.
Over time we become invested in the belief of our limitlessness, we forget that we are eternal beings living a human experience, we lose touch with our natural intuition and begin to live our lives through the beliefs, thoughts and opinions of the world around us.
We start the journey of seeking outside of ourselves to better understand who we are, becoming defined in our identity based on what others tell us who and what we should be.
A child spreads his or her wings, dancing and singing in their own joy until someone tells them they are too loud or annoying.
They then decide at that moment that they should be seen and not heard.
More often than not this then becomes their life cycle, a life of keeping quiet, staying small and changing all of who they were born to be to keep others around them happy.
So that they can feel safe in the world.
These children then become adults who have essentially had their wings clipped.
What children don’t always realise at that young age is that the adult could have simply been having a bad day, was stressed about work/money/relationship and just needed space to think.
The message, however, has already embedded into the subconscious of that child. Being me makes others unhappy.
This is a cycle that is repeated throughout all of our lives.
We express who we are, and then determine if this is acceptable based on the reactions around us.
As an adult, the messages throughout our lives have become so mixed up in our belief systems that identifying who you really are can feel as difficult as finding a needle in a haystack.
Fear of failure becomes the norm, holding you back from fully investing in yourself or life.
The pain of making a wrong decision keeps you stuck in the same place for years, unable to make a choice one way or the other.
This often leads to patterns of behaviour that numb that pain.
The regret of not having done something sooner can be just as crippling and becomes the belief that it is too late.
What I have come to believe is that it is never too late to spread your wings and fly.
In fact, I honestly feel that it is later in life that you have the perfect opportunity to do so.
I started my business at 44, before this, my favourite saying was “I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up”
I can now recognise that this was the perfect timing in my life to do so.
Everything that I did prior to this was preparing me for when I was ready to be who I wanted to be, and not what I thought everyone else wanted me to be.
I realise now that my wings weren’t formed enough for me to fly until then.
This, of course, does not mean that there isn’t opportunity or room for further growth.
We live in an ever changing, evolving and expansive Universe, we never stay the same, we are continuously changing and growing even if we are not consciously aware of it.
We are constantly discovering new things about ourselves, our tastes change, our view of the world changes, our opinions change all based on our growth and life experiences.
Unlike the butterfly, we are blessed to have many years to emerge from the chrysalis, to spread our wings and fly.
The question to ask yourself is are you hiding in your cocoon out of fear or out of preparation?
The greatest lesson that I have learned is that doing something is far healthier than doing nothing.
Taking a leap of faith and trying something equates to growth.
Forward momentum in anything that you do will lead you into the direction that is right for you.
There are no failures only learning.
When you try something and it doesn’t work, it simply means that a new direction is needed.
This is not a failure, it is more like realignment and recalibration, turning you in the direction of what best suits you.
If you never discover what doesn’t work for you, then how will you ever know what does?
You were born with wings to fly, keeping them caged or clipped does not serve you or the world.
Be brave enough to try, each time that you do your wings unfurl, testing the air around you.
If they aren’t spread wide, how will you ever catch the perfect thermal?
They say that it is better to have loved than to never have loved at all.
So isn’t it better to have flown than to have never flown at all?
Blessings
Kerryn
xxx
